Thursday, July 15, 2004

Family Life

For one reason or another, mainly his work related, Robin has been living with us for the last week. Which actually hasn't been as bad as you might have thought, given that he is a confirmed bachelor and not used to living with children.
What he has taught all of us though is how to be a family. Never before have we played board games together, read together or gone out for walks and outings together in such a "family" way.Family 2

Previous relationships have involved an internal conflict for me as to which role I am playing - mother, lover, friend etc. But for the first time there are no pre-defined roles, I just AM. And it is good and its ok, and its working.
I finally feel like I'm with someone who completes me. When I am down he takes over, protects me and sorts things out, and in return I do my best to support him and help him cope with the crap that his work demise is causing at the moment.Hug though I'm not sure how much my hugs are helping, but they are plentiful and meaningful.
Something else I've noticed in myself in this relationship which is quite a departure for me, is a feeling of maturity. A few things have happened which normally would have had me acting like a spoilt child and stamping my feet. Instead, I've been self aware and reacted differently. The end result has been much better and far nicer to live with, so perhaps there is something to this growing up after all.

So overall, life is good. The money concerns are still there, I still don't know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, what direction I want to take, but I'm loved, I love someone dearly, the sex is great and getting better all the time, and the girls are happy. AND...I've laughed more in the last couple of months than I have done for a couple of years.
What more could a girl ask for? Sunshine

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